it's not the same like the other day before my departure...

hmm... 

seriously i'm kind of wanna leaving A.S.A.P...

all the hard moment, i experienced it in Sarawak...

seriously ..

it's like i need to be in somewhere else with this pain...

still feel the pain..

am i?

hmmmm...........

lips can lie but heart no..

however through it all..

i still praise the Lord cause giving me this heart...

i'm proud of my heart..

it is being stabbed

it is being burned

it is being broken

it is being stitched

and yet...

it's still beating...

 God keep reminded me that...

sorry Lord for all...

i know i shouldn't feel this way...

sometime the emotion are just unstable..

but i keep my trust in YOU, LORD..

and i will live for YOU forever more...

till then..

stay healthy.be blessed.

^^

we're not the perfect two

feeling sad these few days...

i'm thinking of someone who exist in my life before...

i don't regret for having feelings with him...

i don't regret of having those memories when he purpose me...

i don't regret for spending most my time for him...

i don't regret for knowing him...

i thought he is the one that God sent to me...

unfortunately, he's not...

all things that already happened for 

some times ago...

makes me hurt so..

making me thinking that he same with others now..

i don't hate him...

but i'm dissapointed for everything that he done...

things happened for ages...

i decided to say goodbye to all those beautiful memories...

and things that you teach to me about life...

by breaking the heart to pieces...

i'm mending it back by looking back to the first love, Jesus...

thanks for making me realize that we're not the perfect two...

now i open new pages of my life...

creating another stories...

i'm thankful i'm a Christian...

i always knew that i have somebody to turn to when i'm down...

i know HE would not put me down...

HE is the perfect love above all...

Thank you, Jesus..

i know YOU love me and so do i...

i know someday YOU will send a person to me who loves YOU just like i do..

maybe even more than i do..:)

till then, keep happy. always smiling. stay healthy.

be blessed.. ^^

everything just well done tonight!

i am so proud to work with awesome people~

especially in the Publicity Team~

u guys had put ur efforts..

and therefore as ur head of committee..

i should be proud!

anyway~

there's a lot of things happening around

and i hope i still can be strong going through it all...

hmmmm....

next month i'm going to be in the final semester of fondation before entering 1st year degree!

getting older now...(huhuhuhu)

sometimes i still feel d pain~

letting go of everything sometimes is not easy as any people would think

for them ..

everything just come and go..

but for me...

it comes and if it's pain..

it leaving me with a deep scar...

hmmm....

i don't know why life just so complicated...

sometime i think i better off this way...

being under pressure is not as awesome as u may think, peeps!

i'm founding something that hurt me...

ahaaaa~

makes me realize somthg...

what is it?

it is about F.O.R.G.I.V.I.N.G and F.O.R.G.E.T.T.I.N.G

i'm not good enough to people am i?

i'm not a nice person, is it?

why people keep treating me badly when i treat them the other way?

being too nice or being just nice is a fault?

hmmm....

i don't know...

it's 0200+am in d morning..

i just can't sleep..

i don't know what roaming in my mind now...

but it's disturbing...

however spending rest of my time in church playing keyboards...

makes me feel okay~

there i find my peace~

and how i wish to be in that kind of peace......

btw..

counting days to meet the air asia~

Sarawak, i be there as soon as possible!

i'm attending SPK 8 in SIB Brickfield

for this moment...

i no longer be the participant..

but the "PEMBINA"

hehehe

i'm longing to experience many thing with God

i have this kind of feeling...

i do anything...

just to satisfy my longing for God

i even do something i never dare to do so before...

that is..

playing keyboard...

but the feeling of sadness...

keep haunting me..

i try to focus more with God and church~

but then the feeling of frustration about my failure in everything makes me HURT~

a lot...

God~

keep me strong..

two is better than one

i've been so busy from day 1 arrived in Bintulu..

my activities for the whole week?

let me show you...

DAY 1

O13Oam (Saturday)

arrived in Sarawak

direct to Bintulu...(arrived ptg trus tdo)

mlm:

went to church :dancing

DAY 2 (Sunday)

pg: church service

petang: church (youth service)

malam: esaimen 1st paragraph

DAY 3 (Monday)

pg: lepaking wif sista2

ptg: esaimen line 5

mlm: off to HISTORY MAKER dance practice in church

(SIB BEM)

DAY 4 (Tuesday)

pg: rehat2 in rumah

ptg: esaimen line 8

mlm:off to HISTORY MAKER dance practice in church

DAY 5 (Wednesday)

pg: lepak2 in rumah...

ptg: off to church for the dance practice..

mlm: off to church for doa syafaat (me play keyboard)..

den pecut my kreta n off for dance practice in SIB BEM  

DAY 6 (Thursday)

pg:lepak2 in house wif fam...

ptg: esaimen line 20

mlm: off for the YOUTH REVO TOUR in church...(AWESOME)!!

day 7 (Friday)

pg: now in rumah...

ptg: will be off to church for dance practice

mlm: dancing n joining the youth revo tour in church..(yayyy!!)

DAY 8 (Saturday)

pg until petang will be busy with the SIB Bahasa Kenyah youth activity

mlm: off to church again for Sunday morning service

Day 9 (Sunday)

pg: me off to church (**Sunday service)

ptg: see how..maybe off to church again...=)

mlm: packing my things...

Day 10 (Monday)

pg: off to Miri

ptg: shopping and round2 in Miri

mlm: taking my flight...went back...

all excitement in church will be left n will be coninued in KL...

** i am TIRED physically...

but my soul not...

i'm longing to serve Jesus even more...

that's why..

i never sigh when i felt tired...

i am happy because i spending my holiday wisely...

i spending my holiday with my heavenly Father, Jesus...

i love to do it..

i know...

TWO is better than ONE...

i decided to walk with HIM in HIS light...

God bless us all!!

H.O.L.I.D.A.Y here again!

everything just A.W.E.S.O.M.E!!

now the exam ends~

Language Description

Language Development

English Study

Social Study

looking forward for tomorrow...

"now everybody can fly"

my favourite quotes of the year...

but though i'm so happy with the holidays,

A.S.S.I.G.N.M.E.N.T.S

seems to follow me as well...

what a luck!

till then~
juju wish you all a happy holiday! 

examination totally killing me...

examination really put me to

"DEATH"

SO tired....i can't wait for holidays to come...

Language Description Skills ☑

Language Development Skills ☑  

English Studies ☐

Social Study  ☐

2 more paper to go....

gambatte kudassai!!!